Scott Allan MacMeeken 2007 Comeback Special...
Well, I haven't made a post for over a year now and I thought I'd start right into reminding folks of what the heck I'm up to.
So, I moved to the great state of Tennessee nearly two years ago. I don't know if it was the best move for me, but it is at least better then where I was at. I no longer feel as though I'm on the verge of holding a Budd Dwyer style press conference so that in it's own right makes it a better place for me. I came here with the idea that I needed to re-think my life, or at least the way I live it. In all honesty, I can't really say that I've made huge amounts of progress. I will say that I have far from given up on myself.
I'm definitely one of those guys who was born at the wrong time. I feel lost in a society that to me is becoming so hedonistic that I view it as the new Greece. People do what the hell they want these days and never mind the consequences. As the song says, we're living like there's no judgement day. I'll save all that rant for another day though. I don't want to jump back into my weblog with a bitch session.
I was talking with my buddy Ryan the other night. He was giving me much encouragement about myself. I was basking in my own self pity complaining of how I'd let myself go into such a physical and emotional slump that I felt as though it would take years to recover the damage that has been done. As I listened to him remind me that this was a huge cop-out I realized that I'm probably far from finished. I am still as musically inclined as I ever was, I'm just rusty. It is also not hard for me to drop weight once I have set my mind to it. In my younger years I would not give up on anything. If I truly wanted something I would persevere until I made it happen. My late father often complemented me on that part of my nature. For some reason now that I'm getting close to thirty-four I've let life beat me into becoming a person I don't really like. I'm not the steadfast "I'll get the girl no matter what" cowboy that I once was. I feel like a guy who is washed up and broken. In all this, I can see the good. Looking back on my younger years, I was confident, but also slightly arrogant. Now, I don't think I could be more humble. They say great things come from humble beginnings.
I have re-affirmed my faith in God and I take things with Him one step at a time. I had completely turned my back on Him for many years, but that was in the past. By His grace all things are made anew. I'm far from being Enoch or Elijah, but my walk with God will only continue to grow.
I am beginning once again, to have the urge to pick up my guitar and play. It's been a long time, but something tells me I'm far from finished. My life has been a bumpy road, but that only gives me more food for thought.
On a different quick note, John Couey the evil beast that murdered little Jessica Lundsford was found guilty of 1st degree murder and all other counts. May God have no mercy on his soul. There is a special place in Hell for him and other sub-human beasts like him.
I'll close out here for now. "Res Non Verba"
God Bless.
-Scott
So, I moved to the great state of Tennessee nearly two years ago. I don't know if it was the best move for me, but it is at least better then where I was at. I no longer feel as though I'm on the verge of holding a Budd Dwyer style press conference so that in it's own right makes it a better place for me. I came here with the idea that I needed to re-think my life, or at least the way I live it. In all honesty, I can't really say that I've made huge amounts of progress. I will say that I have far from given up on myself.
I'm definitely one of those guys who was born at the wrong time. I feel lost in a society that to me is becoming so hedonistic that I view it as the new Greece. People do what the hell they want these days and never mind the consequences. As the song says, we're living like there's no judgement day. I'll save all that rant for another day though. I don't want to jump back into my weblog with a bitch session.
I was talking with my buddy Ryan the other night. He was giving me much encouragement about myself. I was basking in my own self pity complaining of how I'd let myself go into such a physical and emotional slump that I felt as though it would take years to recover the damage that has been done. As I listened to him remind me that this was a huge cop-out I realized that I'm probably far from finished. I am still as musically inclined as I ever was, I'm just rusty. It is also not hard for me to drop weight once I have set my mind to it. In my younger years I would not give up on anything. If I truly wanted something I would persevere until I made it happen. My late father often complemented me on that part of my nature. For some reason now that I'm getting close to thirty-four I've let life beat me into becoming a person I don't really like. I'm not the steadfast "I'll get the girl no matter what" cowboy that I once was. I feel like a guy who is washed up and broken. In all this, I can see the good. Looking back on my younger years, I was confident, but also slightly arrogant. Now, I don't think I could be more humble. They say great things come from humble beginnings.
I have re-affirmed my faith in God and I take things with Him one step at a time. I had completely turned my back on Him for many years, but that was in the past. By His grace all things are made anew. I'm far from being Enoch or Elijah, but my walk with God will only continue to grow.
I am beginning once again, to have the urge to pick up my guitar and play. It's been a long time, but something tells me I'm far from finished. My life has been a bumpy road, but that only gives me more food for thought.
On a different quick note, John Couey the evil beast that murdered little Jessica Lundsford was found guilty of 1st degree murder and all other counts. May God have no mercy on his soul. There is a special place in Hell for him and other sub-human beasts like him.
I'll close out here for now. "Res Non Verba"
God Bless.
-Scott
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